Ain't That Unusual?

I really like these, so I’m going to answer the rest.

Questions came from here. The ones I don’t answer are here and here.

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?

Honestly? I’m angry all the time. I don’t know how NOT to be angry lately. I’m trying to undo the kinks from an abusive relationship. I’ve noticed, too, that if someone else makes me angry, all the anger I have goes towards them instead of the person the anger is really meant for. But the last time I had a large bout of anger, it was directed towards my abuser, because I had been talking about them.

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago non-stop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?

I would call my mother. Because when you’re scared and trapped, isn’t that the person you want the most? If I had time after that, I’d probably make some sort of facebook post letting everyone know that I love them and they’d better tell stupid stories at my funeral.

4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? What do you do with your remaining days? Would you be afraid?

I don’t think I’d tell anyone. Well, I might tell one person, so they can comfort me as I freak out about having only one month. I would need that more than anything, because I’d be terrified of dying, of not getting to do everything I wanted. But I wouldn’t want to spend it having friends and family cry over me. I would want their last memories of me to be good ones, of things we always did, not of counting down the days until I’m gone. And it would be about who I’m with, not what I’m doing. I’d be sad that I never got the chance to travel, but I’d rather spend my last month with the people I love than in a foreign country where I know no one.

5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust.

Trust, definitely. Because what’s love without trust? I’ve had people I love that broke my trust, and it really ruined things for me. I would rather be able to trust someone and know that they’ll be there for me and not hurt me than be loved. Because isn’t that what love is, anyways?

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dogs life? Why or Why not?

This is where I’m an asshole and find a loop hole; tell someone else to save the dog and run to work XD But in reality, I’d probably save the dog. I can always find another job, but that dog will never get another life.

7. Would you rather be hurt by the one you trust the most or the one you love the most?

Does it really make a difference? Trust is a fundamental part of love for me, so either way, I’m going to get torn to shreds. I guess, if I were to break this down into relationships, would I rather be hurt by a friend (who I trust) or a significant other (who I love)? I’d rather be hurt by the significant other. In the end, friends will be the ones with me forever.

9. Think of the last person who you know that died. You have the chance to give them 1 hour of life back, but you have to give up one year of yours. Do you do it? Why or Why not?

Absolutely. The last person I lost was my cousin. He was 47 and he died of cancer, leaving behind a wife and six year old son. I would give up a year of my life for him in a heart beat, so he would get the chance to see everyone again, and so everyone would get to say goodbye and how much they love him this time.

11. Does love = sex?

No. I can love someone and not want or need to have sex with them. And while we’re at it, sex =/= love. You can sleep with someone without loving them. Love doesn’t have to be physical, and physical doesn’t have to be love.

12.Your boss tells your coworker that they have to let them go because of work shortage, and they are the newest employee. You have been there much longer. Your coworker has a family to support and no other means of income. Do you go to your boss and offer to leave the company? Why or Why not?

Assuming that this is happening RIGHT NOW, yes, I would give up my job so they could keep theirs. I’m just a college student still living at home. I leech off my parents still. This coworker doesn’t. They need the money much more than I do, and while I know my parents would be annoyed at my lack of job, they would understand why I did it and support my decision. I’d be okay without a job for a little while, and could easily get another minimum wage job somewhere.

14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a member of the opposite sex, you love them or that you do not love them back?

…I really don’t know. Probably that I didn’t love them. I find it easier to be hurting than to hurt someone else. But I’ve never been in the position where I’ve gone out on a limb and told someone that I loved them without knowing how they feel.

16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them. Who were they to you?

My father, last night, before I went to bed.

When I went away to school, I realized how important people were to me. Similarly, after I got out of the abusive relationship, I realized how twisted love was in that relationship. So I always go out of my way to let people know I love them and show them what that love means. Whenever I end a conversation or leave someone, I always tell them I love them. Also because life is unpredictable. You never know what could happen.

17. If there was one moment and one time in the last month what would you change and why?

I can think of a million moments in the last few years I would change. But in the last month? I don’t know. There probably is, but I don’t know what.

19. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?

Eurgh. In the moment, it’s very likely. Thinking about it now, it makes me cringe. But it’s very possible I would. If I ever have the chance to save someone, I would.

21.You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your rationale for making the decision?

This will sound so horrible, but I would drop my grandmother. The only grandmother I have left is my mom’s mom, and she has never been a part of my life. She’s more of a person I just happen to know. She’s also an alcoholic with dementia who’s addicted to her meds, so she’s never really present in any conversation, anyways, and that’s if she remembers who we are. She’s slowly killing herself. And besides that, she’s lived her life. The newborn hasn’t. Who knows who that child will be? I would definitely save them rather than my grandmother.

23. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?

There might be a more recent time, but the one that jumps out at me was a few months ago. A friend/acquaintance in one of my classes was absent when we had a quiz, so I gave her the questions on it. She surprised me with a set of chakra stones, because, quote, “I really saved her ass”. I didn’t expect anything more than “thank you” or “you’re awesome”. It was a really nice surprise.

posted 10 mesi fa